When there's output (swimming) there's input(buffet)

Actually din plan to blog tis entry so soon de, but since Im emo again, I shall blog now coz still dun have the sleeping mood lor. Emo coz of wat? Still got wat? R/s? Also duno is it considered as r/s anot lor. Watever lar! =.=

2day actually planned to go ECP & celebrate Deon's belated bday de. But somehow the weather dun seems too good so we called off tat plan. Then I sms Darling wat's next plan? Go according to her plan go eat Sakura Buffet? But she was like MIA din reply lor. So I told Deon abt the Sakura Buffet & she's ok with it. But bday celebration juz eat seems too boring lor. She's ok with it but Im not! Im fussy de ok! =.=

Realized tat Jurong West tat sports complex also have tat Sakura Buffet outlet! A thought passed tru my mind... *ZOOM!* A few days ago Deon told me she went down to pool during her Bintan trip lor! OMG~ Coz last time she told me abt her reason for nt going into pool. Wah~ Since she so enjoy the pool experience, I suggested go for a swim there den hungry like mad n go for buffet more worth it! =X

Chit chat online with Watson abt swimming thingy den "introduced" Deon to him! Wakakakaka~ Im bad sia! Like doing match making! LOLOLOL~ But Watson really fit her criteria wat. *bleahz* =p

But I abit regretted abt my toopig plan of going swimming. Coz since tat time at Redang I hurt my left shoulder, the funny bone is still there like tat lor, and ofcoz it hurts lar! Move abit oso abit pain, dun move it also abit pain. After swim its even worse lor! As wat Owner said, duno why I always like to hurt myself =( Noe my shoulder in pain still suggest go swimming to hurt it further? =( Mayb when I really cant ta han den go see doc? Pray hard nt too late by den? =/

Called n called Darling, finally arnd 12.19pm she finally replied. She's not at home lor, she's at Alvin's there! AMK travel all the way back Clementi to pack her stuff coz sudden changed of plan. She couldnt meet us on time so Deon & I went ahead 1st. Then here drag drag there drag drag, after we've changed finished Darling was here. Alvin was here also which we din noe! We tot he's going to ECP coz of Darling's cycle lor =S

They berry ma fan lor! This Darling got pimple on her left den she say muz stand on right side. Im taking the camera cannot stand at the most left mah, coz my left hand skill of using Lumix is still not up to skill! Standing in the middle I really having hard time placing the camera lor. Cant top view coz if I lift my arm will block Darling. Duhz~

Jurong West tat pool doesnt satisfy me this fussy! The so called normal pool is super shallow! Tink start from 0.9m den till deepest 1.3m? Forgotten le. Walked 1 round really no other pool except tat sheltered pool, but there's restriction tat muz swim continuous laps! =.=

As wat Watson has warned, quite alot ppl lor. The water is cold like duno wat lor, mayb coz no strong sunshine ba. But ok lar, since I din plan to swim too much coz of 2 reasons. 1st reason was tat I doesnt wish to worsen my shoulder, but unfortunately its worsen! 2nd reason coz gotta keep a lookout on Deon. Coz its her 2nd time go into pool, gotta teach her how to swim too. Well, after some teachings she managed to float her body & also kick in the right way for "frogstyle" Honestly, tink I shld go in teaching line leh? LOL~ But Im such a lousy swimmer why am I teaching? =.=

We swim arnd 4pm to 5.20pm? Quite short lar, but gotta go le, my shoulder cmi soon & its time for our buffet too! $27.82 each (after all charges) if Orchard outlet gotta charge $2 more lor! Fainted~

Buffet oh buffet! I saw alot alot food I wanna try & my plate ended up like tat! Wakakakaka~ =X ok, lemme introduce those nice n not nice food here ok?

Start from chicken wing! Ok, I had 4 of it means its not bad to me, but Deon said she doesnt like n she juz ate 1. So chicken wing depends on yr tastebut ok? But its abit oily lar, but still ok for me if compare with mac wings which I die oso dun wanna eat tat le =.=

On the right of chicken wing got some Potatoe Salad? But its pasta leh?! Anyway its juz so so I wun go for it again.

Next to it is Mee Goreng. Cold liao nt nice so also no 2nd round. So also sounds kuku? Nvm =/

Below it is kani salad! Woooo~ I quite like it lar, but din go for 2nd round coz gotta leave some space for new stuffs later =X

You saw tat whole lots of Potatoe Wedges? Well, it tastes ok for me too, but I really miss Redang's Laguna Resort's one!! Tats an unforgetable experience ok, the best I've ever eaten! =(

There's a tempura prawn which shld be passable. But I dun really like tempura thingy lar.

Below it is pizza. Well, if u go round u will notice there isnt much left. But tat doesnt mean its nice ok. Its coz hardly few were displayed coz of its size lar. Conclusion, its sux. Pizza? Go PizzaHut or other better places! Shoo~

Springroll below pizza, it sux! Tat's it. =S

Last but not least, tat fried veg thingy bside the chilli, below the chicken wing, taste oily to me mayb coz it's cold le. But Deon mentioned she likes it. Well, basically she got diff taste from me! LOL!

Her plate shall explain why the food she likes I dun like. Except the Tuna Sushi ok. I do like some sushi =)

Darling & Alvin stopped quite early & said their tummy were so full! LOL~ Tink the food doesnt really suits Darling's picky tastebutt den mine! =.= While I still can squeeze almost 3 tiny pieces of cakes down! =X The mint 1 sux ok =.= Blackforest can pass lar, but I forgotten where I eaten a super nice de =(

The fishes order was from Deon. Pregnant fish? Coz Deon say there's no meat inside, all juz eggs! Sinful~ But she said her wasnt the sinful 1, coz she dint kill it =.= Look at the fishes! Wat their expressions show?! So super duper sad face lor! Why?! Why muz kill us~~~ NooOoOoo~ Look closely at their mouth! Qiao qiao de lor. I called them 嘟嘴鱼 =X Fishes, no offence here to rename u ok? LOL~

After makan & we had a foto session with the swimming pool gate & facilities as our background.

I really dun understand leh. Why muz they hunchback? They're not blocking any view ah. Made me this taller 1 going half squat till so tired lor! =.=

Dun ask me why there's gap btw Deon & I. If really wan me explain hor, from wat I see lar. My hand alady gonna stretch till Darling there liao. So if I move closer to Deon, my hand will be placing bhind Darling's back & not Deon's le =.= And! Deon's arm intercept with mine so I cant bend my arm also =.=

Muack muack~!! Duhz~ Its really hard to position yr mouth kissing Deon's direction & yr eyes gotta turn n look at the camera! Tat Alvin always made me luff lor! I ren till cannot make it n blar! Luff out! Heng the shot was taken le *phew*

Do Rae Mi? =X Also dun ask me why the pics so dark! Honestly as wat the rest has seen the result on the camera, the lighting was perfectly ok de lor! But I really got no idea why after uploaded to pc it turned out so sux! Lumix! I began to hate u & like Canon! Canon not Cannon. Silly mistake I've made once =.=

When walking out of the stadium, saw alot ppl running on the tracks! Woooo~ Now den I find tat nite time jogging also quite relaxing! But there abit dark? I scare I clumsy will fall leh. LOL~ Too bad I gotta take 2 times transport there, if nt can consider go tis stadium jog. Keke~

Went to Jurong Point. Darling & Alvin bo bian gotta go with us coz Im Darling's Da Er Long! She wanna borrow $500 to buy laptop or desktop? Well, haven buy lar, but since I've draw out liao den faster bank into her a/c lor. Why I dun use transfer? Coz I dun wanna Mama ask me why I transfer $500 out when she went to update my bank book lor =/

Deon recently bought some Chinese books & on the bus to JP she lemme flip 1 of it le. Not bad lar, its abt how to tink positively type, suitable for me this super huge emo creature =( Went to Popular to look for more books but Deon was disappointed as she couldnt find it which she saw in Kinokuniya which selling at a super duper higer price! (x_x)

Me long long time din read books le wor. Last time sec sch till poly still got like borrow some romance novels to read, bought some John Grisham books & bought tat hot "Rich Dad Poor Dad" LOL~ But older liao den more lazier liao? Tink its time to get some books! =)

Why I took this pic on MRT train? Special notice din u see tat? o.O

K lar, dun wanna strain yr eyes. Keke~ Only priority person can sit lor! Wakakaka~

Alright, my shoulder is screaming ask me to take a rest! So as my back lor! Tink I got a super duper bad sitting position ba. Somemore Im sitting on a stool, not those proper computer "armchair" with the back can lean on de =(

26/07/2008 - Half rainy day?

Tink ytd parents had tis arguement over Papa being not working & rotting at hse for a few years le. Somehow btw their conversation I got to know tat Papa used Mama's 50k! And Papa has tis mindset of wait another 2 yrs & he can take his CPF $$ & den he will return Mama's 50k at 1 go =/

Ytd nite plan to slp early de but arnd 1am Papa den woke up went out eat his DINNER! Papa same pattern wif me hur? Go on strike by starving? =.= Mama saw Papa went out & came to nag to me abt Papa tis n tat lor. I agree wat Mama said lor. Haiz~ Being a man he shld be the 1 working, earning living for this family. If Mama dun have tat 50k (which passed away Grandpa gave her de) tink we gotta eat grass or glass oso can lor =.=

Papa dun bother to go out work den I also bo bian lor. The most pissy part is tat he didnt change his spending pattern lor. As usual he still bet 4D, Toto & even soccer. 4D & Toto I no comments lar, but soccer he seems like duno tis duno tat, he juz anyhow buy lor. Its juz like u duno much abt stock den u go n play it. Haiz~

Everyday see Papa before going out will take $$ from Mama. Sometimes he will tell Mama how much he's taking but after awhile sometimes he dun even bother le. Poor Mama like an ATM for him. How much longer can tis situation goes on? Mama alady said tat bank $$ is less than $500, which gotta deduct $2 every month lor. Current situation only my 2nd bro working lor & his pay is like quite little tink $1600 or $1700? I really no idea.

Kinda emo & dropped a few tears. Duno why crying always tired me out. =S

Duno why tis Pek Pek likes to stay out whole nite drinking sia. Got hse dun go back de =/

2day do my 2nd round of job search, seems like its quite hard to find tat fated job? Well, I never regret abt resigned from my previous job, coz it really sux like hell. I dun wanna get life shorten there lor. Hope can faster find a suitable job ba, but gotta meet my main concern which is location! Coz gotta rush to lesson after work mah, I dun wish to attend lesson late de lor.

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A few weeks ago saw Brothers taking this Pooh Bear arnd in the hse but I duno who de lar =/ Fishy~!! Foto turned out abit dark, but his eyes & nose really looks like milk chocolates~!! *drools*

No food for my brunching! OMG~ Went hungry till arnd 3pm den Mama fried prawn & fried onion eggs (which I din eat coz I dun eat onions). Plain rice + 3 fried prawns = Still taste tasteless
At nite arnd 730pm went to Jurong Point alone. Outside alone is risky! Coz I will spend alot! Aaaaaaaaaaa~ But saw those Indians & Chinas weaken my spending power.

Saw advertisement on this Calbee new product. The cost of it gaves me a stunned! $1.85!! Hell man~!! This small cup of potatoes weighs arnd 40g! What made them to mark it to such a high market sia! Gosh~ I stood there awhile tinkin shld I buy this freakin ex hell or not =.=

Another new product of Calbee! Wahseh~ They suddenly launched so much new products?! Or Im outdated? =/ This thingy 65g $1.65 still more reasonable lor *sigh*

Also new products!! But from Myojo~ One of my fav brand of mee =) Big size bowl 100g @ $1.50 while normal size is 80g $1 each when now still havin offer! =.= But duno why hor, no matter which brand, seafood flavors juz YUCKS me offfffffffffff to lalaland =.=

This not new product le. 80g $1.24 consider cheapo le =/

2 old products of Calbee. Im not super fans of Calbee ok. But juz happen tat I do eat their products. Prawn crackers 70g $1.20, hot & spicy 80g $1.53

Jack & Jill, all time fav since young! =X 2 of 85g $2.25 offer. I love offers~ Nono! Is tis offer or Invitation to Treat? *study law siao* Aiya, dun use offer, use promotion can? Den no law issue le =X

See I buy so much scary rite? Parents always say Im opening Mama shop like tat lor. But I did have this dream when I was young! *silly giggles*

Keep seeing frenz posted their Uni Convocation fotos... So envy... I dun have the chance to wear so smart, throw tat hat, go all arnd Spore taking fotos in tat "graduated suit"... Haiz~ Envy envy envy envy envy!! =(

Thoughts~

22/07/2008 - Tuesday

Rainy day.



At night, duno what happened, alot "bees" flown into master-bedroom's toilet, as well as kitchen & kitchen's toilet.



23/07/2008 - Wednesday



The suspected "beehives" by Papa, but its juz some rotten fruits.

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At night, TT msn me told me a most updated news happened in my ex company. Well, why I mentioned "ex company" instead of juz writing out the name of my "ex company"? Reason will be revealed when I explain abt the most updated news.

This manager sent out an email memo regarding personal blog. They noticed some present & ex staffs have been blogging abt company things & work. So that email is a warning tat shld avoid blogging & putting internal affairs in it. Even fotos also not allowed to be posted, as well as the company's name & colleagues name.

Why suddenly have tis memo? Coz got another manager saw the blog & somehow tis topic was brought up to the management & they even discussed tis issue during their weekly Tuesday Management Meeting.

I duno does "ex staff" referring to me anot lar. Coz I only gave my blog address to those who are closer to me in my own department only. If it happens tat this someone gave another & this another one gave someone else & pass here n there till some kpo who go report it, I really got nothing much to say abt this. I will classify this kpo person under "Betray", no mercy will be given. Those who pissed me off will certainly, definitely, absolutely recd my full power of cursing & swearing =)

Since its ex company & not certain whether Im involved in tis blog issue or not, so I dun really bother to find out more lar. If Im also included in tat "ex staffs" list, that kpo person, who u noe u're, better coverup yr ass ok! Anyway, covering ass also no use lar, coz cursing is nt juz on ass! LOL~

My own opinion on this issue is hor, there's a grey portion lar. Blog is personal thingy, but not everything can be blog abt, eg politics & religion thingy. I believe bloggers have seen alot cases on news liao rite? But as for blogging abt company I haven come across leh. Duno is there any law issue involved, I almost wanna go ask my Biz Law lecturer lor! Wahahaha~

I PERSONALLY (made me now say wat word oso muz b triple careful) tink lar, blog abt company's confidential thingy is a straight NO. But as for personal affairs with colleagues or what, maybe can? As for fotos, I tink it's way too overdoing lor. I dun understand wat's the company worrying abt? Saying bad things of the company or colleagues rite? If there's no such issue happened, who will go create stories? Own opinions of certain issue sure will have de mah. Juz tat blogging is written down, how abt talking behind ppl's back? Juz no solid evidence lor. =S

Lesson learned, never ever leave any concrete evidence which will be harmful to yourself. So if u dun like tis colleague, NEVER EVER blog his real name down, give him a nick like A B C or watever shit u like.

Never blog things which will lead out the nicks given in any entries later on. Eg, in 1st entry u blog tat u hate "Mr Kuku" den 15th entry u post a pic with him & u wrote there "Mr Kuku & I" Get it? =.=

So, from now onwards, I will not mention the person's name in those negative blog entry. You will know who you are, but others will not. Now look at tis idea also not too bad lar. But it's abit against my own principle, coz Im such a person whose too straight, likes means likes, hate means hate, what to hide abt? Maybe Im too selfish in tis way, coz I always hurt the person in such a straight method. LOL~ Sorry but really no offence, its the truth (to my own extend) tat I've blogged all e long.

As for my previous entires on my ex company, I will make the extra effort to edit it. Not to cover up my own backside, since ppl unhappy so juz gotta do it lor. U tink it's an easy task to track back every single entries & words? Gosh~ I tink it will took up donkies of hrs ok! (@_@)

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Enough of tat toopig topic, now Im gonna talk abit abt r/s & frenship thingy.

R/s mah, currently Im not interested le. But I have frenz out there who are fortunate to have ppl love them like no sky no earth. Deliver flowers, purposely buy them makan, give them expensive gifts like $200+, offer to be their chauffeur. Indeed I do envy them, but I juz dun have that kind of life ok. Say in a better way, Im independent enuf, I dun nid such stuffs to make my day *bleahz*

As for frenship mah, diff ppl have diff perspective. For eg 9 out of 10 times u waited for yr fren who was late for abt 5 to 15 mins. To u ofcoz u dun mind din nag yr fren & yr fren who was late din tink its a matter & dun bother to apologise. But for that 1/10 time u was late for 10mins, yr fren started to give u scolding & condemn u, as in next time u 2 meet up yr fren will keep reminding u nt to be late. Get my point? Nvm. I give another example.

Yr fren suan u, yr fren tink its jokin nia, nth to take to heart. But as for u, always kena suan in such a negative way will certainly feel abit unhappy abt it. If the situation turned arnd, u suan yr fren, yr fren got damn fudup abt yr remarks & flare up, say u as a fren shldnt be like tis. Get it tis time? If u still cant get it, means either my words are alien words or u having alien mindset which juz cant get in =X No offence here, juz lame-ing. Dont be bothered abt who is "yr fren", although it is really some of my frenz lar. But so wat if u noe who is tat person? No discrimination allowed here!

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Alright, short update abt my studies. Getting on hand so far, but there's alot revision to be done lor. Coz 1 day 3 hrs of teaching is quite heavy for my brain to absorb ba. What law teacher said got into my mind, so much case law to rem, u sure cant get everything in the nite b4 yr exam~!! But well, I tink I did it during my poly exam for law leh. LOL~

In my schooling days hor, I dun bother to do revision after lesson de leh. But tis time round, I did try my best to catch up lor. Maybe coz older liao can tink more sensibly? Another factor might be Pek Pek ba. He's really hardworking de lor, stayed in JB still come Spore on Saturdays for group revision? But duno my hardworkingness will last till how long leh. Coz if start working it will be super different le, time will be used up~! (x_x)

Wooo~ Too much words & words! Kkz, gotta stop le, if nt yr eyes gonna be pain hur? LOL~ Was having on off fever these few days, so ppl out there better take care of yrself k? Coz being sick sux! =P

Another new beginning?

Yoz yoz yoz~!! After 1 week Im back again. Through out whole week Im juz tat super emo as usual, duno wats wrong wif my brain, juz keep tinkin non stop lor, den caused my tears to roll like chocolate fondue lor =.= Well, I suppose those emo sessions were over? You can always choose to be happy, juz the matter of mindset ba. After such a huge thunderstorm, mayb I will get to see rainbow once again? =)

Once again, I wanna thanks those frenz who cheered me up in 1 way or another. All your advices (no matter harsh or gentle de =.=) & encouragement are appreciated. It really took me quite awhile to being normal again. Not to disappoint those who have supported me all e long, I will try to stay positive de! ++++++++++ (positive mah =X)

As a conclusion, I tink he's not my Mr Right, so my r/s thingy all over liao ok. No more means no more. Tired =.= Really feel quite bad to cause some confusion arnd. Hmmm. Ok, gonna say till out of point? =/



20/07/2008 - Sunday

Know "Owner" (Facebook's Human Pets' Owner =.=) for arnd half a yr le. He did jio me out a few times? But I always have my own excuses to turn him down. Im honest de ok, coz its really excuses, not reasons! =X Ok lar, reason is bcoz he looks like baddie in pic so abit risky to meet him =X

Out of super emo-ness, I met up with him for the 1st time. We went to Toa Payoh lor! Gonna 23 yrs liao, I nv step into TPY b4, even take train oso din pass by there (except tat kuku time at Orchard I took wrong side train home =.=)

He came from Pasir Ris lor, while I came from Jurong West lor. Slowly yo yo yo till there lor. Luckily got seat to sit in train lar, if not stand till leg break lor (x.x)

Tis Owner berry funny lor, we same train den when at gate there he saw me but he din walk over to call me or wat lor. I kuku stood at the control station waiting for him, den he sms me ask me izit wearing pink, he alady at breadtalk there le *pissed* =S

Ate MOS burger for lunch. After a hour plus, I finally swallow all down in my small tummy! Woohoo~ Long time din eat everything till clear clear lor. =D Tis Owner hor, say I eat till berry cute hur? And plz lor, cute oso dun nid wack my head right! :@

I tot Owner he berry familiar there de lor, end up like both mountain turtle =.= Din manage to walk arnd lar, coz nth walk & also he gotta leave coz meeting frenz?

4.30pm we left TPY, my nx stop was at Yishun, Northpoint. Wulu place lor, super small nth much to walk, but at there I found office bags I like! Not juz 1, but its like 3 or 4 pieces! But end up I din buy lar, coz the promoter not arnd again! What a lousy timing I always have hur!

Went Esprit & tried 1 top, XS size of it oso doesnt suit me! Gosh~ I hate being skinny can anot! Super hard to find a super fitting clothes lor. Haiz~

Tried to ask arnd for Jielun "The One Concert" disc but the ans I get is always, sorry dun have =(

2nd stop I went to Causeway Point, all the Points sia?! Coz Owner say Causeway Point bigger more things to shop. See I so guai, always listen to ppl's advice! Hee~

And I started my shopping till mad lor! 1stly I bought the bag in Metro $27.90, which I saw at Northpoint. Then I continue to shop clothings for work. End up spent $120 at Osmose! Ok lar, 2 tops which nid to order, 1 pants & 1 jacket, all office wear.

Shop alone always spend alot! (>_<) Shop till my tummy complain den I realized it's 8pm+ liao lor! OMG~ Went arnd & found tat all were so packed, somemore Im alone, how to chop seat? Haiz~ Suddenly I miss him =( Ta bao KFC popcorn chicken meal home. Realized tat not juz FEP dun have nuggets meal le, is all oso dun have le! Why?! Their nuggets so diff from mac lor, I prefer KFC nuggets leh =( What's gone really is gone le? *sigh*

Reached home arnd 10pm & finally eat dinner lor.

Arnd 1am Pek Pek pop in MSN & he sent me a PDF file on interview questions hope tat it will help me in my interview on Monday. Awwww~ Im so touched lor! Tink parents tot I siao hur, suddenly say out "gan dong" such word. Hahaha~ But Im quite easily gan dong lar. Hahaha~ But really thanks Pek Pek, coz I really din bother to prepare for those qns lor, my mindset is like depends on my instinct & juz ans lor. But end up I tink better be serious lar, coz if u like din prepare den why come for it? (>_<)

1.30am went to bed but flip till 3.30am still couldnt get to slp lor! And tat kuku Owner, sms me, still say wat miss my voice. OMG~ *fainted*



21/07/2008 - Monday

After rot so long, I finally managed to step out hse to attend my 1st interview. Previous interview I turned down coz not really keen ba? Watever lar.

Today this job opportunity was found by Darling, coz I somehow really damn dumb in using those job search engines lor =(

Woke up damn early like 730am lor. Online saw Darren was online. After long struggle I still msn him. Haiz~ Im so 失败! =(

Did some last min preparation for interview qns & I forgot to take note of the work responsibilities of the job lor, which the PDF says shld noe de =.=

Suntec Tower 4 n 5 furthest lor! Walked all e way from Cityhall MRT station till there tink arnd 20mins?! What?! If every morning gotta do this exercise I will die sia! Long time din go Suntec, din noe the original overhead bridge road was no longer there le. Haiz~ Changed to a kuku underground =.=

Can say I reached the venue on the dot? Or mayb 1 min late? Din manage to see those staffs as I was brought to another office which the meeting rooms are. Interview was fast lar, within 30mins. Questions are expected as I've done my preparation, hahaha~ But tink I din answer in a more gracious way? =.= I did quite badly when answering how's my previous job function was like, as well as the industry thingy. Shipping line mah, too technical terms. Containers different from dry cargo & tankers? Suddenly I felt tat I learn nth from my previous job? *sigh*

I tink I wun be selected for tat post ba, coz the work function seems abit diff as they're operating diff type of cargos? And I saw tat manager brought in a piece of form but she din even bother to lemme fill in. So, from tat I determine tat she has alady opt me out from the list le. Dun nid wait till end of this week or mayb early next week as wat she has told me =.=

Emo lar. Actually Im not tat super keen over tis work, coz all high position workers nia lor, no juniors! They juz hired their own admin staff recently and my tis post is oso juz created de leh. Gosh~ Stressful lor. Being the youngest in such a scary company does scare me off =(

Walked arnd tat section of Suntec aimlessly, MJ there also dun have my Jielun concert disc. Haiz~ Wanna try my 1st time of watching movie alone but Eng Wah nt yet open. So went to makan at Coffee Bean lor. Sat there & tink alot. Kinda demoralized by tat interview. Am I asking for too much? Will I remain jobless for berry long? Kinda lost in this working society. Haiz~



My 1st time wearing till so formal with jacket on lor. The jacket juz bought ytd lor, din even wash. LOL~ My hand looks skinny hur? =/



Darling was shocked when saw me? Her 1st time seeing me wear so formal. LOL~ She said I looked POOfessional =.= Juz with a jacket on really makes alot difference I tell u. When I took it off hor, I look so lok kok like a cleaner which Darling described as.



After makan went up to Carrefour find my Jielun disc but cant even find a music disc lor, den saw a pencilcase looks quite ok lar, den fussy me squat there n choose for berry long till its time can meet Darling for lunch lor =.=

Bought Darling a mocha ice-blended from Coffee Bean, walked to Citylink's Sakae Sushi & had lunch there.

After tat Darling went back work while I went RafflesCity walk lar. There high end goods, nth much for me to walk so I left arnd 2.30pm.



Took out my hp by left hand & duno how n why I kena a cut! BLOOOOOOOD! OMG! (@_@) Got this bad feeling abt it lor. Something bad might happened to my family? frenz? love ones? =(

Faster took train back home, but ended up in Jurong Point coz its raining super huge out there. Sigh~



Went to Toys R Us & look for ELMO~~~ =D

Seeing his face always lifted a smile on my face =)

Many ELMOS made me smile at them like nobody biz! Lalala~

Went to shop arnd & I bought clothes again. 1 shirt 1 skirt, both office wear @ Dano $69.50 This time round I felt heart pinch coz I rem to look at the price. Ytd I totally din bother abt the price at all and fussy me din even bother to check the clothings too! Tat's super unlike my fussy style! =(

Thanks~ + nagging part 5! (x_x)

Really thanks Shuxian or Kristine, duno which she prefers lar. LOL~

She's e 1st to read my previous post tat I gave up & spent the whole morning chatting with me abt tis r/s thingy. Really appreciate tat alot ger. Sharing with her my feelings, my uncertainties really make my day better. Especially sharing her own experiences with me, makes me feel tat Im nt tat freakin sicko over my emo thoughts! =)

Well, Im honest to her tat mayb Mama tis factor might juz be an excuse ba. Haiz~ Not really excuse ba. Some sort like Mama is sub factor which leads me trying to end everything? After some thinkings I end up with the conclusion tat its my emo feelings which is the main problem, which Darling has pointed out to me this morning tru sms. Haiz~ I tot I've won over my own feelings but somehow those uncertainties are still there. Im juz avoiding it, not getting rid of it lor. I noe avoiding wun solve the problems, it juz makes the problems seems "disappear" =(

Tink Xian is right, we nid to take tis slowly. We're kinda speeding too fast? =.= Tink gotta have a chit chat session with Da Ren? Coz I blog so much but he read none, coz he's too busy lor. Or shld I say he doesnt even bother? =(

Part 5 started when I woke up from nap at arnd 2.30pm:-
(Im lazy to rem all the points so I used hp to record wat Mama said & I will type every single word out in Chinese, those cant read Chinese plz inform me I will try to translate LOL)
- Sunday where u went?
- He stay which blk? (If u wanna noe, u go ask him yrself lar, I bth & shoot tat)
- 是怕你在外面吃亏hor
- 而且告诉你一句话hor, 女孩子hor, 如果还没有到了谈婚论嫁，身体不要随便给男人hor, 给了男人如果怀孕了，人家不认，看你要怎么办
- 如果给了人家，什么都不知道hor, 就不要跟人家太亲密hor
- 尤其是这种身体的东西hor
- 原来你连他住哪里都不懂，只知道住Boonlay，大牌几号都不懂hor
- 然后礼拜出去哪里? 出去吃hur
- 为什么要问你, 因为现在看到你的底裤这么肮脏，这次这么久ah.
- 也不是要干涉你，是怕你在外面吃亏
- 不然你都不知... (she din complete her words)
- 这次来这么久ah?
- Alright, I went on to clarify why Yi Ma came so long. I told Mama coz go Redang trip my Yi Ma alady late 1 week but still haven come so I went see doc eat medicine dun let her come lor. At 1st she say she dun understand, so I berry good lor, I explained 2nd time den she finally got it =.=
- In hokkien, agar 你自己hor, 自爱，自爱，会自爱就好hor

*Aircraft fly by & ended*



Forgot to upload tis pic which Mama drew berry long ago =.= It was paste on the bedroom door lor. She wants me to see it everyday.

Red Nemo miss Blue Nemo~ =(

Miss too much & Red Nemo gets really emo! (>_<)

Life seems colorless without Blue Nemo arnd...

Im freaking hell out of this! I will not like anyone again!

Got too emo, started blogging like mad, even myself also hard to follow up my entries =.=

Couldnt stay much longer at home. Went out at evening time to meet Darling go PS find her Ai Ai. Coz tat time told them Im searching for Jielun's "The One Concert" disc. But sad to say, Sembawang Music also juz have the CD version, but wat I actually wanted is the concert video. But really seems like too impossible to find le. Year 2002 concert leh. Any kind soul if can find, pls help me buy it on the spot, no matter it's VCD or DVD! I WANT TO HAVE IT BADLY! T.T

Really gotta thanks Darling & her Ai Ai, helped me save $$ Coz HMV selling @ $30 where Ai Ai helped to get discount till $20.90 (>_<)

(Frosty Lemon Tea - quite sour, dun really like e taste)

Ai Ai da bao MOS burger & went back Sembawang for work, while this Darling coz her pimpled face tis cannot eat tat cannot eat & we ended in Secret Recipe.

Darling's Penne Turkey Ham & Cheese. Funny us coz duno wat's "Penne" so we asked n asked. Tink I've asked a funny qn? Coz the waitress told Darling it's not those normal spaghetti shape, so I asked her back den how does this "Penne" looks like, she couldnt ans me & we luff it off =.=

My Kid's Burger Meal recommended by Darling! SO CUTE!!

The star with evil look in its eyes (>_<)

The mini burgers which I tot I can swallow it within a mouth =X

After makan went pass tat shop again, I couldnt resist anymore! So I took pics pics! Awwww~

Cookie monster or Elmo? Hur hur?!

Darling miss her cake which YY bought for her. So we took bus to Taka & buy lor. LOL~ Jialat lar, my throat cmi soon. Im gonna 失声! (>_<)

Finding a seat to sit & I saw many many ELMO again! Awwwww~ Elmo simply too cute for me to resist lor! I wanna jump arnd them & hugz hugz HUGZ!! (>_<) Duno why whenever I see Elmo I will feel happy le. So content by juz looking at him! *blushed*

Tink wun blog tat often le. Time to take a step back. Everything has moved to fast, I couldnt handle. I juz couldnt. Reached home & I emo till msn Da Ren this, "我很想学着怎么去爱你，可是我还是办不到" I really super emo till tis stage. I was sobbing when I typing this sentence lor. Haiz~

Will we juz end here?

Yes, I really gave up le!

After much struggles, I've decided to give up & end it now *sigh*

(I was having this huge headache till I woke up subconsciously for alot of times! I really kena woke up in the end lar, coz had a kuku nitemare tat I've lost my way somewhere & I duno how to get out. Somehow this ending of the dream forced me to wake up, it seems like got a hidden meaning?)

Woke up le Mama started her part 4 bombing by digging out my previous r/s:-
(Couldnt rem much as Im having such a huge headache cum juz woke up mah)
- Dont take so much photos like previous time
- Go out see movie & eat can le, dun take so much fotos
- If wanna take fotos can wait till married le den take as much as u wan oso nt late by then
- Your cousin's duno 3rd or 4th wife, they also din take much foto, in his hse juz like 3 fotos nia
- Dont know why I like to take fotos so much
- Mama said I shld get rid of this foto-takin habit!
- If yr previous ex not happy he will buried himself with those pics u've taken (ok, there's a hidden meaning when she said this. She's trying to say tat my ex will 想不开, kill himself or even me too)

真的快疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉! 疯掉!

Previously I've being struggling with my inner feelings, I tot I will give up coz I cant suppress my own feelings. After much tinkings & cryings, I tink I've finally won & continued to meet Da Ren last Sunday. But I never tot tat I will give up coz of external pressure, my Mama.

Tink I nv blog abt this ba. My Mama, the super scary Mama. Everything I do she just not happy with it. In a gentle speaking is she scare tat I will get hurt. For every r/s that was spotted by her went tru this stage. Terrible stage. I rem previously I shoot her back when I almost mentally broke down? I said tat whoever I choose she also wun like, since she's so picky why not she choose a bf for me! Haiz~ Mayb those bombing of qns seems nth to u all, but it's a totally damn huge pressure on me which Im so afraid of it. Mentally stress till I really couldnt take it.

I tink I couldnt take up any r/s under such pressure from her. I went to take a strong relief panadol to kill off my huge headache & I sms Da Ren. I tink I did it in a hurting way? Im so sorry tat I wanna free myself from stress & put an end to it.

"Ok lets put it to an end. I dun wanna live in such misery anymore. I tink u duno tat I'm crying almost everyday ba. I juz cant get into any r/s. Dun contact le."

"It doesnt make much diff (Da Ren suggest tat I tell Mama we're juz frenz) Im really sick n tired of all these. Jus let me go k?"

"Wait for me? (Da Ren agreed to let me go but he will wait for me) Why bother to wait? It's impossible. Uncle pls dun waste yr time. U're not young le lor."

Honest speaking, I myself also duno when I really have the courage to get into a new r/s. It's really tough when I gotta cope with my own freaking strong inner feelings as well as external factors like my terrible freakin Mama.

Oh yah, ytd nite arnd 9pm bro went out & Mama asked him where he's going, he said park! After awhile Mama really went out to spy him in e park lor! That's how terrible freakin my Mama is. This is nt funny lor, its stress! Tink both my brothers din get into any r/s before ba. Mayb coz they saw the consequences in my example ba.

Maybe I forever also wun get into r/s le ba. I duno. I cant give any timing or promise. I dun wish to hurt anyone else. I dun wish to waste anymore of their time. So, I beg (mayb till the extend tat I will curse?) all guys out there, never ever fall for me!

Oh yah, I din go for tat Recruit Express interview. Tot of going there warm up my interview experience but since Papa say havin headache dun go out & I sent email turn it down lor. I lied tat I got a job offer somewhere else. Actually also not lie lar. Coz after awhile my 2nd resume sent out called me for interview nx monday. A shipping company which Darling helped me find tru Jobsdb. Thanks Darling. If I really got this job, u deserve to eat some shark fin or stuff. LOL~ Oh yah, did realize tat I din really noe how to really search tru webs lor. Coz Darling can find alot jobs which not tru agency but almost all I found is tru agency =.=

Freaking out~!! Aaaaaaaaaa~

Alright, Im gonna freaking mad! Arnd 9am+ I suddenly woke up check hp, Da Ren din reply me =(

9.12am got an office number calling! Muz be tat resume I sent out on Friday nite lor. It is & tml Im going for interview le! But Im not prepared for it! Im gonna flunk my interview badly! Quickly go dig out those formal wear clothing ask Mama wash =X Jialat lor, I tink I've shrink! The clothing seems abit loose fitting leh. Jialat, but bo time liao! How ugly also gotta wear tat le *sigh*

Arnd 10am Mama started her bombing le! U see, told u right, her pattern I noe de. Ytd din bomb me to death, she will start 2day lor. It's impossible for her not to ask! LOL~

She started by saying taking bike ride:-
- Tell him cannot drive too fast
- Muz be naggy, keep monitor his speed & nag him if gone too fast
- If ppl challenge him, dun race with ppl
- Everything safety 1st

Then she went on to ask abt Da Ren:-
- Is he foreigner or Sporean? (WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA =X)
- Ask me take his bike how many times (I answered 3 times ba)
- I noe him juz not long ago? (Frm 3 times bike ride she determine tis, clever!)

She took a break & continued...

Find boyfriend mah, muz find those got job de & muz have sense of responsibility. Coz my cousin her bf not working de, kena chased out by his family so he staying with my cousin & coz he din work, all spending is my cousin paying lor =(

Mama had another breaktime, went out buy breakfast. I tink there will be 2nd half later lor! (>_<)

Tml interview 10am lor, how to wake up?! Ngee Ann City Tower A?! What?! I only noe how to go shoppin I duno simi Tower A or Z lar (>_<) Which means I gotta go there earlier to search lor. Jialat! Aaaaaaaaaaa~ Anyway, 10am de sure is Recruit Express Agent interview 1st ba. So late can hack lar! =X

Im here typing tis entry is to prevent me from going back to slp lor! But I tink I will not be able to take it sooner or later lor. 2 nitez I slept at 4am & woke up freaking early like 9am n 10am! Aaaaaaaaaaa~ Now having this heaty feeling, nose blocked blar blar.

11am 2nd half started after she reached home not long ago, topic still on Da Ren:-
- He work as wat? (I say ship thingy, she say "一句话, 船厂 lor")
- Mama asked me wat Papa hate most? I tot is abt his work related. But ans is those bike riders!
- She went on to say tat bike is most dangerous type of transport
- She comment tat Da Ren's riding position is diff from those Malay's Uncles which those sit straight straight de? Then she went on explain herself tat coz bike diff CC, Da Ren's is those racing type blar blar. Sorry hor, I duno bike thingy & I siam away from Mama =.=

Part 3 started when Im munching my dinner chicken burger. Alright, almost all question out le:-
- You dare to take bike ride hur? (I answered ok ok lar)
- He drive fast anot? (Why Mama keep askin tis qn? She saw him driving fast when we went out or come back? Ofcoz I answered her no lar, but Da Ren ytd went 100+ abit weaken my heart lar =.=)
- He how old? (I said 25 lor then Mama count count)
- Where he stays? (I said Boonlay lor)
- How abt his education level? (ITE lor, but tink got diff grade lar)
- How u noe him? (Frenz lor. Shit, I lied x.x Coz I knew him tru WLNY =.=)
- Then Mama went on to say 1 of my cousin her bf is Msian, another her bf berry rich lives in 洋房 I noe wat Mama trying to say lar. She wish me find a rich guy mah hur. Mayb some more nagging and will put it to an end ba (>_<)

Part 4 continued the next day... Shall start a new entry coz it's an ending or shld I say it has became a new beginning?

会不会错了再错?

13/07/2008 - Sunday

Actually 2day shld meet Fei Zhu En exchange 'present' de lor but coz I ytd nite last min rem it's Mama's bday 2day! When he sms me say bring me go for a trip to farm mart den I inform him abt the lunch celebration & we postpone our meeting to Monday lor. Hope Fei Zhu En's grandma is ok, coz she had a fall (>_<)

Ytd nite I waited for my 2nd bro to come back from work arnd 2.45am lor! Then we had tis 3 person discussion & finalized tat we shall go JP's Fish & Co 1.30pm had lunch den I will settle with the surprise cake & flower. I planned every single detail till 4am+ den slp lor! How detail have I planned? To the extend of, will Mama prefer put 55 candles or juz 1 to represent? Shld I take cake 1st or flower 1st? Wat kind of cake flavor to choose. Sitting arrangement tat Mama wun see the surprises when I bring out. But all these are juz my wishful thoughts nia. Haiz~

I even test out my camera self timer, where to place in kitchen, shld zoom how much blar blar blar. But... haiz~

Was wondering shld I sms Da Ren @ 4am+ tis kuku timing tat I have tis celebration planning & ask him whether wanna eat brunch wif me at JP anot. But tink tink, its bad to disturb him n his family at tis wee hour lor. So I planned to wake up 10am nx day den sms him =)

I managed to wake up at 10am lor! Imagine 4am+ fall aslp lor. Motivation is impt! Wahahaha~ But things din turn out well for me lor. It turned out like shit I can say! =S

Tot of going JP early had brunch with Da Ren den reserve seats, cakes n flowers. I even tot of buying tat Elmo puppet to present tat flowers lor! Bo bian lar, I simply love tat Elmo puppet! =( But my planning was spoilt by Mama! Papa came to tell me tat he n Mama nt going to eat, ask me n bro go ahead to eat lor! WHAT?! Go eat is to celebrate her bday mah, if she nt going wats e purpose of eating! Went out to ask bro how lor den Mama said her bday she's not here to 讨 celebration lor. Heard wat she said I felt so hurt lor. 我的一片心意 why suddenly bcame like tat?

Disappointed. Sad. Pissed. Mixed feelings like rojak lor! I suddenly felt so useless! 2nd Brother brought them out for a few ocassion to celebrate le, but why this is my 1st time planning failed so terribly? My family ties not good de lor. We dun call them Papa or Mama de lor. We can say practically nth to chat. We dun celebrate ocassions le since we've grown up lor. But coz last yr Mama fainted at hse I witness it myself & felt tat its time to do something b4 its too late lor.

Not going to say further abt this failure le! Meet Da Ren since Mama said tat she's going to 2nd Aunt's hse. Terrible mood swing, see till Da Ren also din bother too much lor. My mood is like tat so is my face. Ok lar, see him abit sianz coz partially something abt him pissed me off lar. But over le jiu suan le, dun bother to ask him why oso *sigh*

Last time Da Ren parked his bike right under the kuku tree so from kitchen view totally cant see him. But when I saw him park somewhere near the pedestrain passage, my mind said "oh shit! park there Mama sure see till 1清2楚! Aiyaz, suan le, sooner or later she also might see lor. I bad mood lar, care so much for wat?" =.=

Saw these 3 animals in a car which Da Ren parked his bike infront of lor! OMG~ It's tat lion which attracted my attention lor. I miss my Xiao Lion~ T.T Nobody can replace him! *sob sob* Use hp camera cannot zoom lor, coz zoom liao quality not good mah.

End up I made Da Ren wait for me to go up take camera. Tink coz I din bring my bag up so suspicious lor den tink mayb Mama saw me took his bike off lor (>_<) How I noe Mama saw? I shall explain later.

Da Ren drove me to IMM to makan 1st. Saw tat Elmo puppet in IMM too! U see lar, fated de lor. Haiz~ But tink $24.90 really not worth lor =(

Dun have anything tat I wanna eat so end up eating LJS. Poor Da Ren, din noe he sore throat yet coz I say eat LJS lor n he eat with me, end up his cough came le lor, so sorry! (>_<)

Walked arnd lor. This Da Ren duno wat happened lar, keep putting his arms around me at shoulder! Aaaaaaaa~ Freaking hell! Im wearing sleevesless somemore! Brush his hand off seems abit rude but I felt kinda uncomfy abt tat leh, but I still ren lar =.=

Next stop, Cine. Watch movie lor, coz he gave me 2 choice, see sea or see movie. OMG~ Before I meet him I tinkin tat Im in such lousy mood wanna go ECP 吹吹风 lor! Scary enuf!

Tink Da Ren wanna watch that Hellboy show lar, but Im really least interested in tat lor. I gave him 2 choice, Get smart or Dont mess with Zohan.

Ended up with Zohan lor. Honestly I duno its sexual humour movie lor! Kinda pai seh lor! Argh~ Din really like the show lar, no meaning de, funny mah? so so although I might luff but its nt totally there =.= Sorry Da Ren, wasted $ n time =(

Oh yah! UOB $8 lor! GV lose out le! =.=

Movie 5pm mah den tat time arnd 3pm? Went to Heerens walk lor. Saw "The One Concert" thingy in HMV! OMG~ I was almost giving up on tat lor, coz I didnt buy mah. I luffed out loud when I saw tat piece lor! But after some thinking, I tink it's nt the 1 I wanted. Wat I wan is the video of his "The One Concert" but I saw the printing says CD so I tink it's not lor. But hor, I couldnt recall I got buy this piece before leh! Struggled quite awhile & decided to put it back. Gosh~ Im taking a risk by going home check 1st tml den buy if I really din buy tat piece lor! x_x

Da Ren likes to play games hur. Too bad dumby me juz not keen =(

Got an aunty asked me whether Heerens got foodcourt anot lor! OMG~ I looked at Da Ren let him ans her =X Im "not sporean" ok! LOLOLOL!

Went to Paragon's Coffee Bean to rest. Hmmm~ Berry packed lor, but we're lucky enuf to have a table outside lor. Keke~ This Da Ren, told him I wanna the smallest size for my Mocha but ended up he came back with the largest size! Duhz~ Same mistakes as my ex! Why accept something which is totally wrong? So wat if tat kuku waiter say its the "smallest"? There sure got miscommuication some where lor! =S Nvm, 1st time I let him off, UNCLE DA REN! LISTEN HERE! NO MORE 2ND TIME OK?! =X

Da Ren "washed" the table lor! He took 2 cup of ice water mah den he topple over 1 cup. Gosh~ Tio abit of my bag nvm lar, but my camera in there! Luckily juz some minor droplets. Phew~

He ordered coffee n cheese cake lor. OMG~ His throat like tat still eat such heaty stuff! Had a bite of tat cheese cake, OMG~ soooooo cheeeeeeeesy! Fainted.

Erm, previously Darling asked me to take a pic WITH Da Ren, coz she wanna see the latest version mah =.= I had a long hard time to pop out tis topic lor. Duhz~ I duno wat's so difficult lar, but I juz jam at there so long lor! I finally asked him wanna to take anot but he din give me straight ans lor! End up like I keep giving him chance like tat lor! LOL~ Coz 1st time I meet him coz I said I foto taking pro will take him till nice nice but end up I din lar =X Tis Da Ren also ai mai ai mai de. Duhz~ Why we seems like so shy abt taking pic? LOL!

Coz of this foto taking thingy, we end up chiong to Cine to catch our show lor =.= I tot Cathay show will like 10mins late but it din lor! Tink I kinda too long din go Cine Cathay watch le ba. We end up like missed the starting part for abt 5mins or so?

Honestly tat show bored me off. Or mayb Im too tired till cant concentrate? My mind kinda drift off n off n off! Gosh~ At tat time I really feel like lean on Da Ren's shoulder n slp lor! But cannot lar, how can! =.=

Why Orchard got so many crows? And alot "Ba Ge" lor! All those blackie birds juz gathered there. Why why?! So many places but why Orchard? Came out with this logic coz 乌节 tat “乌” = 乌鸦 den tat “节” = sounds like 街 So, plz clap ok? Im smart enuf so dun nid to watch "Get Smart"! Wahahahaha~ Okok, dun boo me! Im juz crapping mah, smile! =)

After show he gave choices for next stop. I heard Changi? Cityhall? And I tot his choice is go Cityhall? Alright, my mind drifted off again lor. So when he drove passed Cityhall I was like hur?! Where are we going? See movie now see sea? ECP? Changi? Hur hur?!

So he drove all e way to CHANGI VILLAGE!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!! My 1st time gave to him! *blushed* =X

I SAW THOSE AEROPLANES SO HUGE SO REAL SO AMAZIN! Ok, those who noe me well shld noe whenever I see plane fly by I got excited & scream like I nv see a plane b4! LOL!

Gosh~ Kinda abit cant believe it lor. Wat I saw on tv came true! Oways see those couples when separating, they stand behind the fence & watch the plane takes off. Now I've seen it right infront of me! Wahahahahaha~ So sweet! *oops* Sorry, kinda ki siao over here =.=

Alright, time now reads 2.56am! Gonna cut short le, paiseh! Tis my dinner, not nice, like rubber band. Walked arnd saw alot ppl queue for lasi lemak, tink 2 stalls or so? Not juz queue, alot ppl sitting there oso eating. Wanna noe wat's nice at a place, see wat ppl eat n whether did they finish e food anot. LOL! Why din eat nasi lemak? Well, tink I got used to eat chinese selling de ba. Anyway long queue, although Da Ren offered to queue. But 8pm+ seems quite late le hur!

Duno why arnd tis time when I had dinner outside I will wanna puke lor =/ Something wrong wif my system? Haiz~ Kinda sick of this puking system! Somehow I feel tat my puking system irritates Da Ren hur? Imagine u happily go out wif someone but yet feel like puking? LOL~ Duno wat I talkin le lar! CUT SHORT!

After makan he drove to somewhere berry near. 浪漫一下, see areoplanes! WOOOOOOO~ SO HUGE! SO LOUD! (>_<) At 1st really nt used to that roaring sound lor, kinda too loud, but after awhile Im used to it le =)

Got bring camera out ofcoz I started my crazyness! But turn out quite sux lar! =.= Aeroplane approaching! Kuku us started betting lor, coz initally the light berry far mah, den Da Ren say its approachin but I tink its moving away lor. So we had tis betting, movie! End up ofcoz I lost lar. My 1st time there lor, tink he go there duno par toh till how many times le lor! *hump* =S

The plane light is so bright de lor! Although lousy taken but still can see the sea was lighted up lor! LOL! Alright, somehow shld I blame my Lumix camera or wat? Coz I really couldnt take an ave pic which can see tat its a plane not juz lights =(

Tink we left arnd 10pm? Da Ren drove me to somewhere up ahead for toilet break den off we go home le. Tml Monday leh! He muz work lor, if nt we camp at there suan le. LOL! I dun like the toilet lor. The lock like something wrong, can lock but hard to unlock. Me panicked! Turn the lock so hard so fast till I've hurt my thumb n index finger till red le lor! *sob* ='(

Continued our long journey for abt half a min & we stopped. Coz we suddenly rem I din put on jacket! Well, bike ride at nite quite freezing lor. But why Da Ren so scare of cold but not cold???? =.= He say take pic of me wearing helmet lor, I say ok lor, den end up I look like so funny lor! LOL!

Drove abit more n stopped again! Coz saw plane landing n taking off lor. So he made a u turn to the nearer lane which no knowledge me tot its an illegal u-turn =X

When the plane taking off, wah lau, that sound is x100 scarier den the flying sound! I tot Im watching wat horror movie sia! (>_<) Din stay & watch for long coz wearing helmet + jacket is pissing me hot! LOL!

Da Ren, dun forget our plane dating nx Sunday morning hur! LOL~ MORNING hor! =P

As usual Da Ren drove me home. Wah lau, he 2day drove faster den normal lor. Highest hit 100+ got tat + ok! I saw tat lor! Boo! Kinda still nt used to tat speed. Haiz~ My feet not guai lor, left feet started aching like duno wat! Somehow the feet couldnt feel the pedal Im stepping on, couldnt find the right position. Having a tough time to ren till home lor! (x_x)

Reached voiddeck chit chat awhile, kinda behaving abit 暧昧 lor. Worst was when I went up, Mama was standing at corridoor lookin lor! Tat view is perfectly clear lor! Shit! Our every single action tink she saw le lor. She asked me I took bike ride hur! I said yes & quickly hide in room. This explained why previously I said tat tink someone saw me took bike ride off tis afternoon, if not Mama wun out of sudden go out spy! Shit man!

Out of surprise she din further question me! But well, as previous times she did the same, questioned like hell the nx day when our mind is fresh! Shitty! (>_<)

Most scared qn is "he's yr bf?" Coz I duno shld say yes or no =.=

The weird part is hor, I dint tell Da Ren exactly this qn. I told him "Ans tis or tat sure kena nagging lor" I din even mention a word abt bf lor. And his reply was "Just say your bf lor. Hee hee" WHAT?! He know mind-reading or wat?! Kinda scary lor! (-__-)

Over all of this dating. He kinda sweet at times lar, some bingo mind reading getting arnd & he's getting more n more touchy hur! *bites*

Time read 3.30am! JIALAT! I gotta go le. Byez!

Berry unhappy... =(

Im in no position to seek explaination...

Suddenly felt Im juz a nobody... Nobody cares...

Only Fei Zhu En wun make me angry or sad *sigh*

Almost bored till death!

Ya lar, almost bored till death. Haiz~ Woke up & refused to wake up so I slp all e way till arnd 1pm+ & I finally totally woke up lar. Ate my 1st meal, well, it suxs lor. Wanton mee. Haiz~ Tink it worsen my mood off =/

On MSN & this Eric, I mean tat A&T Eric Ho msn me lor. As usual, he's juz making use of me. I din tell him I've resigned long ago lor, so he gong gong still come ask me I in office anot. Haiz~ Told him I resigned le & he juz gave a silly face icon & bo tok le. He's worse off den Jackie lor. Argh~ Cant be juz frenz meh? =/

Nth do so juz glued my eyes to tv watching some SVC program. 1st was interview David Tao, well, Im fan of Jielun but I wun hate other singers lar. Somehow some words of David Tao abt his view of r/s did screw into my brain or so. Hmmmm~ 2nd program was interview with Jolin lor. Nth much juz some crap. Crap nt coz I dun like Jolin lar. Juz some random topics.

Now Im bored till typing tis entry here lor. So random. Since started random den post a random pic ba =/



Wednesday's dinner was sushi in taxation class. Well, tink Im over hungry, ate 4 sushi but still hungry. Thanks Shufang for giving me her potato salad sushi which I felt tasteless. Bought it coz nv eat b4 mah. LOL~ Wun buy tat again le. I dun like tasteless food =.=

Saw Eeyore's nick abt fireworks den noe 2day is the NDP preview, tot of going but Uncle Da Ren seems MIA again den I also dun bother to tell him abt it oso le *sigh* Msn Jason Lim also bo reply de, tink other using ba. Suddenly kinda feel damn lonely! Lonely~ I am so lonely~ I had nobody for my own~ Ya, edited version =.=

I've tried & forced myself. But things juz wun work out for me. I tink I really cant love someone. Or rather say I duno how to love someone. My toopig emo tinking is there stopping me. Sorry, but I really cant.

Ytd nite drafted a sms wanna send to Uncle Da Ren but end up I deleted it le. Haiz~ If last time de me, immediately sent le dun nid even save in draft lor. Wats wrong with me now hur? Chicken out sia! *pork pork gey* Argh~ Mayb coz last time I regretted doing so? So tis time round duno will regret again or not so decided nt to send? =/

I wish I have selective reading, listening, memories? So tat I can choose to live in a more happier way? Sometimes my thoughts ran so off till I broke down into tears lor. Juz plain thoughts alady like tat crazy le. Aaaaaaaaaaaa~ I tink Im sick. I need doc! Outta ctrl le! HELP~~~