Heartbroken once again

Afternoon 4pm msn him again. Asked him he weekend really stay at home didnt go out pei gf ah? Expectedly, he didnt reply. I wanna scold him liao, but chatted with Deon then decided to ask him again is it he's busy.

Finally got a reply, but is from his fren. He's fren is using his pc, which his msn automatically sign in. He apologised & say anything important he / she could help me pass msg to him. I told him not to tell him, after so that person sign out his msn le.

At later night I went to search his frenster account again. This time round then I realized why yesterday I couldnt find his account. Coz I forgot to change the search setting to "frenster".

He's attached le. From his testimonials could calculate his r/s around 3 years liao. Loving couple which I shouldnt appear in his life.

I know this hurts me lots, but it's expected actually. When I saw his home msn got webcam, my instinct told me that he used that to chat with his gf in Malacca. Darling's yu gan also zhun. *haiz* What more can I say?

Although I'm sad, super sad, but I still know what I should do. I will disappear from his life from this moment onwards. No more morning meeting with him. Blocked his msn. Just treat as I've resigned from PEL, or better, I've met an accident & left this world le.

I really dont wish to see him again. It only will hurt me more. If I ever see him again, I'm sure I will cry in front of him.